A pacifying sound morning alarm, bird’s sound, made me woke up earlier today. Suddenly, I
realized that tomorrow is Ramadhan and I jumped from my bed and opened my
cupboard in a hurry to take a jacket, hijab and trousers. Then, I opened the
door and ran away from my room but I slipped my leg on the floor, between
the crack of ceramic in which my leg a little bit unbalanced and I almost fell.
Everyone in the living room laughed at me, then I was trying smile to
them ashamedly.
“What makes you in hurry,
dear? You have to wash your face, I don’t think you have already woken up” Umi
said.
“Hehe Umi, I don’t need
to wash my face, I want to meet teh Meli right now, I can’t wait for this,
seriously. But it won't take long time, I promise. I just want to tell her that
Ramadhan is comeback!”
Umi was just silent with no expression in the corner of the room.
“So unfair! I’m also your
older sister. Why don’t you tell me about that too?” said teh Fida who broke
the silence and tried to tease me.
“What for? You have
already known, teteh. Assalamu’alaikum everyone, I will comeback as soon as
possible!”.
***
I got out from the house
with a bit running and went to teh Meli’s house by my own. I thought about
everything happened in the Ramadhan last year along the way. When I spent my
Ramadhan so far away from my house, I preferred having iftar with my friend
than myfamily. At that time, I went home rarely because I was so busy and had a
bigger fish to fry in the out side. I had a reason for that. I liked being a
busy person with so many responsibilities in my youth. I thougt I could spend
my time with Umi, Abah, teh Meli and teh Fida later, ya… later. Because I was
sure that they would understand.
***
Arriving at teh Meli’s
house, it was very clean and fragrant. I was looking for the source of fragrant
that I smelt around the house, oh I found it! It's because there are so many
flowers around the house.
“Assalamu’alaikum teh,
are you still slumbering in your house? It is very fragrant. Woaaa, you
impressed me! By the way, wake up teh! Tomorrow is Ramadhan, we have to prepare
our self for that." I said it slowly with a bit whispering.
"You have to help
Umi to buy something in the market for supplies along Ramadhan, don't you? It's
like what you did last year. I will help Umi cooking and preparing food for
having iftar and saur." I said it loudly but she was still silent.
"for now on, I will
be nice to teh Fida although she disturbed me as usual, like you ever said to
me that we were siblings so we had to always loving each others. I will prove
it teh, I promise. After that, I will accompany Abah to stay up all the night like you usually did." I kept talking in front of her house with
hope she would immediately wake up .
"Teh, I was
wondering why you wouldn’t wake up although I had already promised that I
would give my time to family in this time. Are you angry with me? What should I
do?"
I had no word to say anymore, no matter how hard I pushed myself to keep calm and continued talking but I always end up with the same condition, felt hurt.
In fact, I still felt
like there was something beaten my heart and made it bleeding until now. I
was in pain. I wanted to scream all the time because I got a nightmare
everynight. I just wanted to see her, to stop my pain.
"Teh, everyone is really happy welcoming Ramadhan, so do I. But do you know what is the grievous thing about it? Knowing that Ramadhan is comeback, but you don't”
***
I laid my head back down
and I lifted my hands and prayed her. I swore, I would give my time and more
attention to family right now. From her, I realized that the precious things in
this world were not how famous you are or how high your position is. But it's
about how you could give your time with family in your busy time. Your family
is your visible wealth. Keep it. Don’t say I will give time to family later
because later become never sometimes.
I said good bye to her
and walked out from her house, I meant, her grave...
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